Dreary Sunday

Got done moving the stuff around ... hmmm, I can't remember, but seems like maybe 2 or 2:30?? I had unpacked boxes all week while I moved them in so it wasn't TOO bad. I didn't have a TV in my room yet as I left my old one for Chris, cause I'm nice like that. I actually left him a Queen size head board, two dressers, a recliner, dishes, silver ware, utensils, pots and pans, towels, the sheets, blankets and pillows off of our bed cause I did NOT want them. He actually now has about 90% more than he had when he moved in with me, but since it's an apartment, I didn't need a lot. I also purged a lot; made about four trips to the dump.

But I couldn't sleep very good last night. Even thought it was my bed, with my furniture, it just "felt" different. I'm used to having him hold me at night I guess and I was alone. I had already been alone during the day, so now I have to get used to the nights. I got out of bed at 3:30, watched TV and unpacked some more boxes. Ariana and I went and got me a TV for my bedroom. Then I got home and discovered the freaking dryer was heating. It did the first load just fine, then nothing. I mean, it's ONLY 21 years old! But if I had known it was going to die, I would have waited on the TV. Oh well. Chris owes me $1,200, which I should get tomorrow when we sign the divorce papers, so I'll just go get one I guess. Maybe now it won't take 90 minutes to dry a load of clothes!

Other than all that, I'm doing okay I guess. I haven't cried today, although I did feel like it a few times. I keep imagining bricks going around my heart and it really does help. But what DOESN'T help is that it has been raining since 7 AM and it's 5:30 and STILL raining.

I did okay yesterday until we had the final things loaded. I went through the house and said goodbye to every room, and then when I said bye to Callie, I couldn't help it. I started crying. I was so mad, and so sad. But I'm going to try and save the $500 this month to pay the deposit and bring her here. We really, really miss her.

All in all, it hasn't been a bad day, and that's a good thing.